A number of people have contacted me to ask what I now believe about Larua Terepin. I am very sorry to have to say that I very much echo Carol Giambalvo's statement on this of Feb. 21. Those of us who knew and worked with Laura at CAN have been through an emotional upheaval more than once on this matter. In this statement here, I do not speak for anyone else with CAN…just myself. I don't want to sound sappy but this whole thing has made me physically sick. I have had to absorb the bitter truth that Laura Terepin was all along a spy for the criminal scientology cult. This has been a very deep and destructive betrayal.

Last fall Laura and I were working on a secret project to copy everything in the CAN Files. The CAN Board felt that this was a priority as Agents for the Church of Scientology were still trying to seize the confidential CAN Files as part of CAN's assets. This project was quickly aborted when scientologist-in-house lawyer, Kendrick Moxon found out about it and dispatched lawyers to intimidate the warehouse owners into locking us out. At that time Laura made a curious remark to me…she said that some people were suspecting her of being at spy. We joked about this and discussed it and then dismissed it. She also told me of having taken a trip to California where she had met a number of people…this would be when she met Minton, Jesse Prince etc.. She then began calling me everyday with no real reason to do so. And she was repeatedly trying to contact Cynthia Kisser and was upset at getting no response. I realize now that she was trying to find out if we had heard anything and, of course, I now know that it was Laura who tipped off Moxon. I didn't hear anything until shortly before Bob Minton exploded on the ARS with his accusations and allegations about Laura Terepin. This was soon followed by Jesse Prince's accusations and claims.

The accusations that Bob and Jesse made about things that Laura had said and done were completely alien to the Laura that I and other CAN staff knew. These were serious allegations which are well known now and I needn't repeat them here. I publicly resisted and denied that Laura could have said and done these things and a number of other people did the same. Susequently, information came forth from a variety of sources which slowly revealed a bizarre tale of deception and a most perverse betrayal. The truth has revealed that this woman that we know as Laura Terepin, successfully assumed the identity of another woman, successfully infiltrated the Cult awareness Network (CAN) as a trusted volunteer, successfully fed CAN confidential information to the Church of Scientology through Kendrick Moxon and his scientology operatives, and successfully helped the Church of Scientology destroy the Cult Awareness Network.

Much of the communication on this matter has been done off the ARS and often through 'back channels' and this has been a frustration to many. But it could only be this way because of the people and situations involved. Things that Bob and Jesse claimed that Laura said to them and that I strongly denied that she could have said were found to have been said by Laura to other persons. But because of circumstances, who they were said to cannot be revealed at this time. But I and others can certainly vouch for this.

The CAN staff were under constant frustration because the Church of Scientology knew everything they were doing or going to do and seemingly everything that was said within the office. It was assumed that the office was bugged electronically but there was nothing we could do about it. I now know with certainty that Laura Terepin was responsible for feeding this information to this criminal cult. I know with certainty that Laura gave personal information on myself to scientology operatives who tried to use it against me. I have spent the last month putting a whole lot of puzzles together. It has been very tough to come to grips with the depths of this betrayal. I feel like a damn fool. Were we at CAN just stupid gullible fools? I don't think so. The CAN staff were very trusting…we believed that she had been psychologically wounded from a cult experience, that she had a family trust fund and wanted no payment or expenses. She worked hard and seemed dedicated and genuine. I believe that she must have a dual personality. After Bob Minton exploded on the ARS with all of this she called me in tears. I believe those tears were genuine…maybe they were for having been caught.

I owe Bob, Stacy and Jesse an apology. I will echo Carol Giambalvo and repeat that I certainly was upset at the way in which they brought forth their accusations. But they were right from the start. And I can understand now their anger. They are due some serious vindication.

Last weekend I received a call from a German TV Documentary producer. He had been in this country several years ago and produced a show on Scientology for German TV. He had come to my home and interviewed me on my experiences with CAN and Scientology. I had not heard much from him since then and so was surprised to get this call from him. I thought that he must of have heard of the Laura affair and that was why he was calling and I right off mentioned, Laura. He said," Laura Terepin…I discovered that she was a spy for scientology when I was there." I almost fell on the floor. I didn't know that Laura had been with him part of the time that he was in the Chicago area. He related how he became suspicious of her and how he tracked her and tricked her. There is more to this which I can't relate here at this time and I am more than upset that this information wasn't passed on at that time.

There are some remarkable contributors to the ARS who deserve a special mention. Keith Henson and some others have done a superb job of digging up important information and their hand in uncovering the real 'LauraTerepin' is a story onto itself. The contributors who so rightly demanded proof to support the accusations deserve a commendation. Karin Spaink has done something special with her information and reports on the 'two Lauras'. Karin deserves particular mention in the careful way that she has handled private and somewhat confidential information. This has been a powerful saga of deception and betrayal with tragic consequences. I believe that Laura is in danger…she knows to  much. She has not communicated with anyone for some time now. I would like to quote a recent remark from senior CAN staffer, Marty Butz, " the situation with Laura does open my mind to the depths of depravity and amoral behavior some people may go to."

Jim Beebe